What The Fuck! Dealing With Growing Pains in The Constriction of Everyday Bullshit
These are the raw confessions of the growing pains I experience as I learn software engineering. I am learning on my own but with lots of priceless resources online. You'll hear about these resources in my articles. Please pray for me!
What a fuckin' day!
I came across a quote by Arthur Ashe:
"Start where you are, use what you have, do what you can."
I can't think of any better way to describe living when surrounded by shit that just doesn't concern me. I feel like I am the only one. I wrote a poem a few years ago.
The best way seems to be inside and deeper, I am attempting to stay focused on my goals and getting an understanding of the information I am learning. Sometimes I need a bit of a reprieve.
But the current choices of activity make me choose to keep my nose to the grindstone. I am not trying to avoid life, but looking outside of myself feels like pillaging through a pile of trash some days.
Some of the folks around me are literally making me physically ill and I am fast becoming my own best friend because finding constructive conversation seems ridiculous most times. Is this a sign of growth? Am I the one that's fucked up?
The space seemed too small and confined today, I love the days of serendipity, how priceless to connect!
I am not quitting, I just have to figure shit out and keep plugging away at the task at hand. Lord help me!
Anyway, with these words, I bid you...
Good night
